Saturday, November 5, 2005, 12:51 PM - Books
despite the fact that it will no doubt leave my chest concave, as a reward/punishment I started Infinite Jest this morning. I am not quite enthralled just yet, but will let you know.Saturday, November 5, 2005, 12:46 PM - Sex
In my ongoing quest for self-knowledge and unpleasant conversations, I spent an hour last night discussing with the author of Monday's kissoff email:
a) how lame it was
b) why on earth he doesn't want to date me.
As you might expect, neither of these topics resulted in any sort of pleasant outcome, although it was cathartic to personally express how inappropriate I thought his communication strategy was. I can't tell if I'm proud of myself that I told him how much I disagreed with his decision, or if that just makes me a pathetic and unrealistic idiot.
I am left, sadly, with another example of someone checking out of a potential relationship. I am apparently not compelling enough to warrant investment of emotional energy. Of course, he's got plenty of external reasons why that's true, and it was interesting to track the thought process that drives emotional charge (I'm becoming more of a cognitivist all the time) but the outcome is still pretty stark.
And no, at the end of the discussion I was not feeling "huggy". More like assaultive and aroused, but apparently neither of those are options.
Seems like I should have pushed harder to develop a higher level of intimacy, but I think he's kidding himself to think that he wouldn't have bolted at the first sign of that. I know that I'm pretty guarded, but I don't think I was putting up barriers. I do think I could have engaged him more on his work stuff, which is a shame since I'm really quite interested in it. Silly me, I just wanted to make out. When will I ever learn???
Friday, November 4, 2005, 04:08 PM
So Adam and I walked into the bar at the Four Seasons last night, and the twinkling cocktail hour pianist was playing Don't Fear the Reaper. When did B.O.C. become the soundtrack for 5 star hotel bars??
Thursday, November 3, 2005, 01:05 PM - Food, Art
No, not the dead one. Last night failing (once again) to gain entry to the hallowed halls of A16 after Hannah's opening , we convinced the hostess at Mamacita (new, on Chestnut) that we were so friendly we should get in on their soft opening 'friends and family' dinner. Having a dissolute handsome Marina boy explain to me how authentic their dishes were was really entertaining, but things were quite delicious. Best were the vaguely Thai chilaquiles, the mahi mahi ceviche ceviche, the pomegranate margaritas, and of course it's hard to go wrong with carnitas tacos.
Hannah Henry still and moving pictures
;)
Thursday, November 3, 2005, 12:59 PM
I didn't really do any day of the dead stuff yesterday - went to one party, very low key, ate some good molé, wore my dead relative necklace. I think it's not quite cold enough yet for a real mother Jean casserole extravaganza, but I can feel the need rising.
Tuesday, November 1, 2005, 01:40 AM - Sex
Perhaps I should just add an email breakup form right here? Would that be more convenient for you, dear reader - at least a dropdown menu with "dumping you" as a choice?? I admit it, I think it's bad form to dump someone you've had sex with over email. I mean, it's not like I'm your girlfriend, I'm not going to scream at you or throw shit or anything, at least pick up the fucking phone. Of course it's far easier to displace my hurt feelings onto the form, rather than acknowledge the unpleasantness of the content, but I do think that these things make a difference. And please don't pretend that you'd like to be friends with me if you can't even get it up for a phone call.Monday, October 31, 2005, 12:41 PM
Ah, my kindred undead sister spirit.
Repenetrator
Gore, smut, and porn site censorship.
Monday, October 31, 2005, 12:02 PM - Politics
I've been spending some time working to make sure a well-designed GOTV experiment in NJ has enough volunteers to work.
Do you, fair reader, live in New Jersey. Philly maybe?
www.WorkingAssets.com/november8
Get out to the wrong side of Trenton next weekend and get some people to vote, already.
This could provide us with information that would really shift the landscape of grassroots politics on the progressive side the next few elections...
Monday, October 31, 2005, 11:09 AM - Food
is a rare thing, especially in any food-related matters. The towering exception for me is the apple. I am bringing home a rollerbag full of macs, jonagolds, and others tomorrow, to be hoarded and consumed every couple of days....there is no competition out west for the tart yielding of a perfect macintosh. Fujis should be banned. I can't believe I've broken into the stash before I've even boarded the plane, but I'm so happy I did.
Macintosh history
Monday, October 31, 2005, 01:02 AM - Sex
Really the last thing that I thought would happen with this year's costume was that I would get any play. Despite my gleefully ghoulish self-presentation, I got lots of attention - the highlight being sweet sparkly glitter indian Manual licking the fake blood off of my bottom lip. It was fun to listen to Andrew glance over at me and say 'you look great' and then watch him try to qualify that with 'I mean you look horrible. But really good.' I never really imagined that sex and death would be so blatantly intertwined with just a little pallor and some extra eyeliner...but it makes all the waif models and heroin chic infinitely more understandable. Kind of disturbing that so many people are into dead chicks, but fascinating to think about working the undead angle to sexual advantage. Zombies unite?Back Next
